
I
was heading back up to my apartment when I encountered an old Arab guy and his
Filipino girlfriend on the elevator. I was reading a book, so I didn't
immediately notice that the old man was speaking to me.
"Korean?
Japanese?" he asked.
"I'm
Filipino."
He
started to laugh, then began pawing my shoulders with his wrinkled hands. He
was speaking in this weird language I couldn't understand. I backed away, while
the Filipina took his hands and held it against his chest.
"I'm
so sorry. He's drunk." The old guy smiled foolishly.
I
gave her a half-smile. "No, it's fine. Don't apologize."
His
hands wriggled out of hers and touched my shoulder. I backed off. She held him,
and apologized again. I just shook my head, and hoped we'd get on my floor
soon. She was smiling awkwardly, and I couldn't help but smile awkwardly back.
My irritation melted. It turned into something I couldn't put my finger on
until I looked at her. I realized then that I pitied them.
And
I thought that it was the saddest thing, to be pitied.
***
One
woman in particular broke my heart. She’s this dark-skinned girl who looks like
she has Aeta blood, and who’s more than a little loopy in the head. When you
pass through my red-light district, it’s almost impossible not to see her. She
usually appears like she’s shouting at someone. Her hand gestures are huge,
accompanied by facial expressions that would be comical if they weren’t so
pitiful. She looked more like a caricature than an actual woman.
2am.
I was in line at the 7-11 to purchase a lightbulb since the one in my bathroom
conked out and I had to take a shower in complete darkness. Two foreigners were
in front of me, while this crazy woman, was dancing, uhm, energetically near
the entrance.
One
of the guys said, "My friend thinks you're sexy. You should go do your
sexy dance for him."
"Buy
me a Coke!" she answered.
"Sure,
if you do your sexy dance."
The
girl shook her breasts and started chanting.
The
guys laugh harder. I pay for my lightbulb and walk away, feeling uneasy. Perhaps it reminded me too much of
kicking a person who's already down.
I
was wearing my Persian-print pajamas. I didn't feel like changing into
something more appropriate, and I figured I didn't particularly care if anyone
saw me or not.
The
bulb I bought wasn't as bright as the one I had before. I'd have changed it,
but I figured I'm helping the world fight global warming by using less bright
lightbulbs.
Photo
taken here.
